Confess to Cure.
In the middle of my usual busy work day, I found an unexpected moment of Quietness, while I was looking over a student from a classroom I worked in. He was standing out in the cold; face buried in the corner of the brick exterior of our school, screaming in anger and frustration for some reason that was unknown. As I stood inside, leaning over our heater to offset the cold, these words gently invited themselves within Mind, then Heart:
“You can’t be forgiven for what you don’t confess.”
I didn’t know where this came from, but I knew Who it came from; and because of that, this Word was worth exploring.
The basis of my spiritual/religious foundation comes from the Christian faith; which God has used to help me see the Bigger Picture of Ultimate Reality. In Christian theology, there is this ancient practice that exists, which is known as confessing your sins to your brothers and sisters, and to God. In our very rigid, Western thinking, this has been practiced on a very surface level. What this usually looks like, most known, is going to confessions, where you practice vulnerability by having a moment of honesty about your shortcomings; which are usually heard by someone on the other side of a wall who doesn’t know you. Not to take away how the Universe can use this for our personal transformation of mind (metanoia), but if we are truly honest with ourselves, this practice doesn’t challenge us to dig deep to get to our True Selfs. It keeps us following the rules well, so that we can feel good and move on with our day.. Only to return to this practice cyclically.
Confession is a Sacred, vulnerable practice that releases our Soul and psyche from a very necessary guilt, that could oppress us by chains of a very unnecessary shame if not addressed. When we hold things inwardly, they slowly consume us. I am sure you can probably recall a time where this was true; pause and reflect on that feeling….
Unforgiveness isn’t necessarily in the hands of God nor people who we wrong, but is dealt by our True Selfs; our True Self which is Honest, Good, and Centered in Love. This Self that is a part of us, and is us, Loves us so much that it refuses to let us live in a place of keeping ourselves suffering silently, imprisoned by our vices. This Self also Loves us so much that it readily forgives us as soon as we confess our afflictions to ourselves, to those we hurt, and to our brothers and sisters. Such shedding of ‘sin’ as we call it is exposing, and enough to cause us to fall to pieces, but that's where God comforts, and builds us into a Greater Image of our True Selfs.
Confession isn’t and shouldn’t be a moral duty, or else it will always fail to transform us Inwardly; giving us the opportunity to Shine Outwardly. It is done so that we can Forgive ourselves, and accept the Transformation Forgiveness God implants within our inner Being. Maybe we are like my student I spoke of, more than we like to admit; holding in all our inner affliction, which hurts and oppresses us so much, we wail in pain at ourselves. The Good News is, we need not to bear this pain. We have Sacred permission to be vulnerable, to confess our hurts, and find Healing and Whole-liness when we do so.